|Packing up Home
||[Mar. 30th, 2009|10:48 am]
The lost Chapters in the Tales Of The Jedi
It didn't take very long to pack up the few things she planned on taking with her.
She was in her room, working on packing her clothing into a small suitcase. She didn't have much, but the house was her whole world. She still didn't know if she could handle being a Master again. She hadn't used the Force for 7 years. She didn't know if she could be the same Jedi she had been close to 20 years ago. Things were different now. But she felt like she needed to give it a chance. If not for herself, for her son. It was the best reasoning she could give herself. It was easier to use her son, then to own up to it.
She was in her dresser, pulling out a few of her things out of it and putting them into a suitcase. She didn't hear anyone come into her room.
She smiled, having used the same techniques back when they were trying to rebuild the temple. "So what do you want my role to be here? I won't interfer with what you've built, but I'm curious as to why you need me here. It looks like you've got something good going here."
"Thank you. We have tried very hard to get here. We need another voice, another mind, another counsel member. Someone who can help make the decisions that need to be made for the good of the Jedi Order, the New Republic and the Force. You would help with the teachings of the students, with the major decisions to keep our Academy going and how we might help the galaxy back into a state of peace without war and turmoil." Luke placed his hands behind his back as Tal Jr. looked up at her with an open gaping mouth. He knew she would teach, but this? Holy crap...
She blinked in confusion. "I'm sorry, I don't think I heard you correctly. You want me to sit on the council? You hardly know me. I haven't really used the Force in almost 7 years. And you want me to teach these kids how to use it? To guide them in the Force?" She took a seat on the bed, trying to take it all in. It was a big opportunity, and she didn't know if she could handle that. She closed her eyes, searching for some guidance.
Luke pulled up a chair and sat down, "Serenity, a week ago I saw a vision through the Force. In this vision, you stood by me, Kyle, and Les as we made an important decision about the future of one of the Padawan's here. You also helped to decide on the fate of your son here at the Temple and you helped defend it. Although you may have given up on the Force, the Force has not given up on you. I can feel it's presence surrounding you, wanting very badly to be a part of you again." He pulled out a small holovid and it activated to show a figure standing infront of them. The man was smiling and held out his hands for something. The image repeated itself. It was Tal Senior.
"Les told me what happened to his old master, from what he could remember. He gave me this holovid knowing that you would be here someday to get it." Luke set it on the table infront of her, "I can't imagine what the loss of a husband might feel like. Why did the Force take him? Maybe you could have stopped him, could have done something different to change what happened. But all is as the Force wills it. I can help you move past this resentment Serenity, but only if you allow yourself to let go of your pain."
Tal stepped forward and kneeled down infront of his mother, putting a hand on her knee. "Come on mom...it's time you let this go..."
Serenity blinked, the image of her husband bringing tears to her eyes. She knew that she wouldn't be able to hold onto the resentment she felt. She wasn't able to keep it help in any longer. It was easier to forget about it, but when it was brought in front of her like this, so could no longer ignore it.
She needed to live for something more. This was what she needed. It was all here, in front of her. She could no longer deny her desire for something more. She let the sob out that had been stuck in her throat since Tal's death. She cried for her son, one one she never really knew, for her husband who didn't get to know either of them. She held onto her son, letting the tears fall freely as she let go of her past pain.
Tal sat next to her on the bed holding her in his strong arms. He let her cry out what she needed to cry, letting a few tears of happiness fall down his face. Luke left the holovid on the table as he smiled and stood outside the door.
Tal stroked his mom's hair as she cried trying to hush her quietly, "It's going to be alright mom. I'll be here with you the entire way. I promise."
Serenity only cried for a few moments, letting all the pain that was inside her escape out. She took a few seconds to catch her breath. But she looked up at her soon, and her face was hopeful. It was something he would have never seen on her face. "You don't have to stay here. I'll be okay. I'm finding peace. Slowly, one step at a time. You have your own life."
Tal cocked his head to the side and chuckled, "Mom, even if I tried, I couldn't stay away from you. If you're staying here, then I'll be seeing you all the time. I'll give you some time though. Master Skywalker wants to show me my room anyways. I'll be back to check on you later ok?"
As Tal opened the door, Luke stood outside with Kyle, talking about something and he turned with a smile. Luke stuck his head in the door, "I'll be in my chambers if you need me Serenity. Good to have you with us."